The present – ch25

Inspiration can come from the darndest things. Answers to questions unspoken can also appear as secret Santa gifts at your desk in the middle of July. Such was the case for me.

I was getting coffee at my favorite coffee shop and decided to sit in one of the comfy chairs that the bottom was actually sitting on the floor. Really – what are people doing on these chairs!? Do the employees jump up and down on them when the store is closed? But there I was sitting in the comfy chair with my knees parallel to my elbows when I decided to close my eyes for a moment. (See, I really needed the coffee.)  I like to eavesdrop, hopefully, discreetly on the conversations around me. Not that I am nosy per-se but more that I love to listen to real conversations. I have had my heart filled with emotions listening to such table talk and it is much more real than being tweeted. (C’mon you know the celebrities have people tweet for them. And besides those aren’t conversations.)

So I took a safe sip of my hot coffee, set it down and looked around a moment to see the faces and body language of the people in the shop and then I closed my eyes to try to focus on the them. It is much like using a dial radio and trying to zero in on the channel you are wanting to listen to. I heard the table of three that were closest to me which were talking about their plans for the weekend. The table beside them where two guys were talking about a web page design and then to my left at a table about center to the traffic path was a couple of women who had their notebooks on the table and their laptops on. I heard the words “please understand” and tried to focus. I have learned the best way for me to focus is to open my eyes and look at the people I am trying to focus on and then begin concentrating on them directly slowly closing my eyes. I have, let it be known, got up from a seat to sit closer to a conversation that I found very interesting. Right now though the words “please understand” for some reason struck a chord with me.

“I know that you want to succeed and that right now there is a lot of pressure to perform but you need to consider where you are at. You are new to the team and the team knows that. What you need to acknowledge is that this is not the employer where the unprofessional and arguably the unethical behavior took place – that was in the past.”

“I know, I know but I am somewhat apprehensive and concerned. I wonder if I am making the right choice working on this project. I am not sure I can meet the team’s expectations…”

“You had no problems until a week ago so what happened?”

“Jay called me, my old boss, and offered me a new position…”

“So that is what this is about? Money?”

“No, no I am looking ahead and I am not sure…”

“Quit looking ahead, for that matter quit rehearsing the past as well. You need to live in the present…”

Connection broke – it was like someone took those seven words and planted them in my heart and mind. “You need to live in the present” – why were those words so jarring to my mind? I ran through the conversation again in my head and nothing else stuck out. I began drinking my coffee and looking around at the people and mulling over the feeling those words gave me. The best I could describe it as is the so-called Eureka moment.

I began to think of Tess and my mind told me softly “you are on the right track”. (Aren’t people who hear voices in their heads and listen to them given lots of medication to shut up those voices? But I digress…) I have been concerned why Tess – such a wonderful woman would allow me to be in the center of her life. I have been concerned that I will screw up the whole thing as well as my fear of repeating past mistakes. Then the bell rang – past and future, I was dwelling on things past and unknowable future events instead of enjoying the present. I looked over at the two ladies talking and I wanted to say thanks to them. I was all excited now and knew I needed to see Tess and give her the biggest hug I could muster. I picked up my coffee and got out of the coffee shop and headed over to the store she worked at. My heart swelled and I could feel a lump developing in my throat – I was so fortunate to be enjoying life with Tess and I was never going to forget that again.

unfortunately no improvement

Nov. 30th

Late last week the University of MI consumer sentiment report and analysis was released. It is “present” looking study and has over 30 years of historical data to compare the present with. It is a nice, short and sweet snapshot of the national consumer “feeling” about spending and earning. The November report highlights:

Unfortunately, there has been no improvement in consumers’ financial prospect in the past two years. While consumers clearly believe that the recovery has gained some traction, most still think that the economic gains will be too small to improve their own job and income position anytime soon.”

 

The personal finances of consumers remained quite bleak in November. Nearly twice as many consumers re-ported that their finances had worsened rather than improved during the past year, with one-in-three reporting declines in household income.

 

The majority of households expected no income increase during the year ahead in November, for the 23rd consecutive

 

The Expectations Index, a component of the Index of Leading Economic Indicators, worsened during the past year (-2.6%).

 

The monthly report is available here: https://customers.reuters.com/community/university/default.aspx#

Plugging a leak

Mr. Krauthammer’s recent article dealt with the Wikileaks subject and Assange in particular; here a few snip-its:

At a Monday news conference, Attorney General Eric Holder assured the nation that his people are diligently looking into possible legal action against WikiLeaks. Where has Holder been? The WikiLeaks exposure of Afghan war documents occurred five months ago. Holder is looking now at possible indictments? This is a country where a good prosecutor can indict a ham sandwich. Months after the first leak, Justice’s thousands of lawyers have yet to prepare charges against Julian Assange and his confederates?

 

Throw the Espionage Act of 1917 at them. And if that is not adequate, if that law has been too constrained and watered down by subsequent Supreme Court rulings, then why hasn’t the administration prepared new legislation adapted to these kinds of Internet-age violations of U.S. security? It’s not as if we didn’t know more leaks were coming. And that more leaks are coming still.

 

Think creatively. The WikiLeaks document dump is sabotage, however quaint that term may seem. We are at war – a hot war in Afghanistan where six Americans were killed just this past Monday, and a shadowy world war where enemies from Yemen to Portland, Ore., are planning holy terror. Franklin Roosevelt had German saboteurs tried by military tribunal and executed. Assange has done more damage to the United States than all six of those Germans combined. Putting U.S. secrets on the Internet, a medium of universal dissemination new in human history, requires a reconceptualization of sabotage and espionage – and the laws to punish and prevent them. Where is the Justice Department?

 

And where are the intelligence agencies on which we lavish $80 billion a year? Assange has gone missing. Well, he’s no cave-dwelling jihadi ascetic. Find him. Start with every five-star hotel in England and work your way down.

Want to prevent this from happening again? Let the world see a man who can’t sleep in the same bed on consecutive nights, who fears the long arm of American justice.

2 cents: It is pretty well known that he is in the UK. In fact it has also been established that week that the UK MI5 and 6 know exactly where he is. I am leaning more and more to having him picked up and detained. I agree about the charges being brought against him for spying and if the law is not up to date it needs to be updated you bunch of dopes. Then grandfather past cases in and lock him away. Again – this was not a whistle blowing case and he should not be protected because of it.

full article here

Wikileaks

November 30th

My mother asked me via email what I thought about the organization and the recent data dump. I was wondering myself because I was a bit unnerved with the Sunday dump where in the past I haven’t been. I think I got it figured out for myself and replied to her – I think that Wikileaks original purpose was to be a whistleblower safe haven and I am all for that. However the action by the organization on Sunday was not whistle blowing but revealing sensitive information for the sake of releasing it and causing embarrassment – most especially for the USA government. I see the potential for a lot of harm and distrust in relationships with other governments and quite possibly undermining very sensitive work that has been accomplished or in the works. They should be held accountable for the disclosure of information just as if they were a captured spy which possessed sensitive/government documents.

Flurries and papers

First day of December and we have snow flurries and while it is cold outside I know this is nothing compared to what we will have to endure soon.

I skimmed over the NYT, WSJ and Washington Post this morning [yep I am THAT busy] and came across a couple eyebrow raising things.

First the story about Carmela Dela Rosa who threw her grandchild off the parking garage to a 50 foot fall death.

 

“Police say Dela Rosa, while walking with the family from the mall to a parking garage, suddenly grabbed the toddler and tossed her over the guardrail of a fifth-story walkway. Angelyn’s body crashed into the pavement 50 feet below, and she died hours ater at Inova Fairfax Hospital.”
 

 I read the Washington Post story and the first thing that crossed my mind is that seems like a pharma-induced event. You know, one of those quickly mentioned in a monotone way so as to not really be intelligible. I definitely won’t be surprised to learn as the story unravels that she was a Cymbalta or similar patient. I did notice toward the end of the article the reference – buried in the story – that she has been suffering from depression for over two years.

Another story about the drive by companies to fingerprint our computers and phones.

“Advertisers no longer want to just buy ads. They want to buy access to specific people. So, Mr. Norris is building a “credit bureau for devices” in which every computer or cell phone will have a “reputation” based on its user’s online behavior, shopping habits and demographics. He plans to sell this information to advertisers willing to pay top dollar for granular data about people’s interests and activities. Device fingerprinting is a powerful emerging tool in this trade.”

The WSJ story is a bit unnerving and it’s not because I am using my computer to perform illegal or unethical business/fun – I just expect privacy. Privacy in my opinion is linked to human dignity and respect and is at the core of our declaration of independence and bill of rights.

I read a couple different stories about the global economy and got some scary data about our country. The articles were in the WSJ [Europe’s Crisis Widens — Italy, Spain See Bonds Sink, Portugal Faces Rating Cut as Faith in Rescue Ebbs] and the NYT [Economies Strong Where It Counts]. The gist is this:
USA purchasing is steadily growing which translates into more imports from Europe (example: leads to 22% increase exports in Germany) — which translates into the ever widening trade deficit in our own country. This bit of news – again proves that the whole spiel about USA needs to embrace globalism and sending jobs across the ocean to build our products cheaper and ship back here is at the core of the trade deficit which is also spills out into our unemployment woes. Secondly this put from the NYT article: “A paradox of the debt crisis is that the 16-nation euro zone, as a whole, has a budget deficit of around 6% of its gross domestic product and total public debts of around 84% of GDP. While not exactly low — 6% is twice what’s supposed to be the maximum in euro-zone countries — that is healthier than in the U.S., which is running a budget deficit of over 11% and has total debts of around 92% of GDP.”

Portland citizens escape unknowningly

PORTLAND, Ore. –  Undercover agents in a sting operation arrested a Somali-born teenager just as he tried blowing up a van full of what he believed were explosives at a crowded Christmas tree lighting ceremony in Portland, federal authorities said.

The bomb was a fake supplied by the agents and the public was never in danger, authorities said.

Mohamed Osman Mohamud, 19, was arrested at 5:40 p.m. Friday just after he dialed a cell phone that he thought would set off the blast but instead brought federal agents and police swooping down on him.

The FBI affidavit that outlined the investigation alleges that Mohamud planned the attack for months, at one point mailing bomb components to FBI operatives, whom he believed were assembling the device.

It said Mohamud was warned several times about the seriousness of his plan, that women and children could be killed, and that he could back out, but he told agents: “Since I was 15 I thought about all this;” and “It’s gonna be a fireworks show … a spectacular show.”

Mohamud, a naturalized U.S. citizen living in Corvallis, was charged with attempted use of a weapon of mass destruction, which carries a maximum sentence of life in prison. A court appearance was set for Monday.
rest of story here

2 cents: I am sure if this would have occurred in a real small city/town it would have succeeded. Targeting a city with a FBI presence whose agents were apparently adequately trained is what saved those people. Central to a successful terrorist attack is the planning by someone who actually understands and knows our culture, government, and systems which is what makes Anwar al-Awlaki the most dangerous of terrorism planners currently. His publication which I did review is quite alarming because he does explain simple, easy ways based on US culture to achieve successful terrorism attacks. In essence what he is providing for terrorist wannabees is a publication for free sharing his knowledge and wisdom. The publication was so troubling that I quit reading it and deleted it.